The Carousel

"The carousel never stops turning, and you can't get off" - Ellis Grey

It was a Friday afternoon. The day we are supposed to go home and have dinner with our family.
It was a Friday afternoon. and things gone bad.

26th June 2015, Friday . An accident happened.

Circumstances changed, fate changed.

Post event updates:
- I'm totally fine, suffered from minor cuts and bruises
- My manager wasn't. Underwent oral and maxillofacial surgery. He's recovering well but we are still hoping for him to get back his eyesight.
- My 15 years old waja has served me well, saved our lives, and retired in the junk yard.
- Motor insurance issued a total loss payout, and I've gotten a new car on 7th Sept. 2015
- Lost my phone and glasses in the accident as well. Replaced.

All tangible losses have been recovered. What's left are the emotions that I still have to go through everyday.

"The carousel never stops turning, and you can't get off"

Fast Forwarded

3 Years and 6 Months, the rough estimated time that I have left this blog hanging.

3 years and 6 months, so many things can change. But yet, there are still things that remained the same.

My last post was written when I was starting my new job with Prudential as a Claims Assessor.

Long story short, I hated working there, which was why it only lasted for about 6 months when I accepted the offer my ex-boss from Mediexpress (Medix) offered.

Work in Medix wasn't the same as before, the treatment and and the tasks assigned got routine and improvement suggestions was turned down from the top and nothing seems to be moving. I was also doing part-time study at the same time which was quite challenging.

In August 2014, I've decided to take up another challenge for a role in Business Development for an Integrated Facility Management company. I've graduated with my Masters in Business Administration soon after starting with this company.

Yes, 3 years and 6 months has passed. Many things had changed, and there are still some things that remained the same.

So, you might be thinking "I've been here before, this is familiar, this is old hat." And you may be wondering why am I back, But you're about to find out everything has changed.

Uncharted

Here it comes again, the feeling of excitement, joy, and sorrow. Love and hate. The uncertainties I have to face.

A huge decision has been made to switch  to a new environment. Thus, It’s a huge change that I’ll have to adapt to.

I’m going to miss what I have, but I’m looking forward to what’s in stored for me.

It’s another window closed, but now the door on the other side opened.

 

 

and then, there’s this feeling that you can’t talk about…

Life’s like a riddle…

just another year

Another year has come and gone.

Another year with only one post every month. Another year where blogging seems so distant. Another year, I noticed that I find it difficult to find the right words to describe my feelings, expressions, and thoughts.

Another Year, another new goal, another unachievable target.

Another burden, another responsibility, another stress.

When can I get the strength to let go everything and just leave?

To go where I want.

To do what I want.

To live how I want.

When I want.

With who I want.

 

Making These decisions. I can’t only think about me. Even though single, There’s never only “me” in the picture.

of value and values

what differentiate the values we have with our value?

I’m kinda going through a rough spot these days.

hopefully everything would be fine…

FIGHTING!!!