of value and values

what differentiate the values we have with our value?

I’m kinda going through a rough spot these days.

hopefully everything would be fine…

FIGHTING!!!

Life . Challenges . Changes

Often in life, we predict the outcome of someone else’s life. Neglecting our own.

Judgements are done based on personality, actions, and a tad of prejudice. But little did we know, people change. Things change. Along with time, personality, actions and everything changes.

Someone whom I get to know long ago, a jerk, arrogant, careless and playful person has now became a dad probably due to the above reasons. Is now a good husband, caring father and a breadwinner.

This prompted me to look at myself instead. Am I still who I was 10 years ago? Did I grow? In what ways? Is it for the better? What would I be in the future?

Success, how do we measure success? What is success? How long is the time I should allocate for myself to be successful. Does it mean owning a nice house and a good car? Or having a family of my own to share my simple life with? Can it be also the best of both worlds? Yes, the best of both worlds is what I should be aiming for.

Where am I standing? how do I fair? are there any guidelines which we can use to measure ourselves? I’m becoming 24 soon. and I've not have any idea on what I should do to myself. Am I giving myself pressure? or am I complacent? Do I work hard enough to be where I wanted to be? And what do I want out of life?

Challenges are opportunities. That’s how I perceive it. Which is why I have been taking up many challenges to increase my value in the market. Being the sole account manager for a huge corporate client is going to be difficult, but I hope it pays. Promotions and salary review is around the corner, bonuses are still unknown. I like to challenge myself like how I like people to challenge me. It makes me more competitive, sharp and prepared. Stress keeps my adrenaline pumping and me working.

I like challenges, but it must pay. Else, Changes must be made.

What is the duration I should give myself to achieve the targets I’ve set for myself in this company? How long before I should execute the idea of promoting myself to the next level if this company can no longer give me what I want? “you will know when the time has come” – my cousin told me.

In year 2012, I want to live happily, with an open mind to explore new things. and remember every single step of the way to success!

Happy 2012 everyone!

night time, bedtime

When you’re little,

night time are scary because there are monsters hiding right under the bed.

But when you get older,

the monsters are different - loneliness and regret.

Although we’re older and wiser,

We still find yourselves scared of the dark.

 

Sleep - it’s the easiest thing to do.

You just, close your eyes.

 

For so many of us, however;

Sleep seems out of our grasp.

 

We want it,

but we don’t know how to get it.

 

Once we faced our demons and fears,

and turn to each other for help.

Night time isn’t so scary,

Because we are all alone in the dark.

Feeling

I have a feeling.

I feel pain,

I feel emotional,

I feel like walking under the rain.

 

All these negative feelings are all I have.

When will the darkness go?

When will the dawn break?

 

At least I know,

I still have got something to lose.

of scars and wounds

People have scars at all sorts of unexpected places.

Like a secret roadmaps of their personal histories,

diagrams of all their old wounds.

 

Most our old wound heals, leaving nothing behind but a scar;

but some of them don’t.

There are some wounds that we carry with us everywhere,

and even though the cut’s long gone, the pain still lingers.

 

What’s worse?

New wounds which are still horribly painful?

or, Old wounds which should’ve healed years ago but never did?

 

Maybe our old wounds teach us something,

they remind us where we’ve been,

and what we’ve overcome.

They teach us the lessons of what to avoid in the future.

 

That’s what we think.

but it’s not the way it is, is it?

because there are still somethings we have to learn;

over and over and over again.