relaxing Sunday

after a whole week of mad rush, I really love my Sunday to be relaxing, lazy in a way, but relaxing. A day which I don’t have to think about work, a day which I don’t have to rush like a crazy person to meet a dateline. It’s good to have a break like this every once in a week. It probably helps bring down the blood pressure too… just saying.

After working for 10 months in KL, I’ve finally hit a car (with my car) which is due to the other driver’s carelessness, partly mine too perhaps.  But it’s ok since the person agreed to pay for the damages. I would consider this a small problem since my car just suffer from a minor damage and that I’m still in one piece. =) Fret not, everything’s under control.

Side track, Medix Indonesia’s sending a few people for training starting tomorrow, which means, I’m gonna be hell as busy as ever juggling my tasks and training the people from Indon. it’s a challenge that I believe I can take up. =) Things are akinda getting routinuous for me anywayz. This just came in time to spice up my work life a little.

Speaking of spicing up work life, there’s this particular guy who seems to be born to make my work life difficult. Hmmm… Wonders what I did to him in my past life??? but den again, life would be boring without them i suppose? XD

Aite, that’s all for now. =) Shall relax till the max before (what I foresee) 2 very eventful weeks starts tomorrow~

MIA

Hello bloggies, It has indeed been a while. More than just a while actually until some of my friends actually called me to ask me if I’m ok because I’ve not been blogging for quite sometime.

As the title implies, I have been missing in action of the blogging world, but not at all in the actual world. You would have notice that I actually stopped blogging as frequently once I’ve started working as compared to while I was studying. So, yea. I'm focusing on my career now that I’m in the workforce.

For those who doesn’t know what I’m doing, I’m working in the IT department of a claims managing company as a Management Trainee current;y learning up data control (Yes, I’m a BioTech Grad, I know). The job is by far challenging and I loved it quite alot as there are so much to learn.

Sometimes, I miss my Uni days… =(

why get mad over the things you can’t control?

Well, as many of you know that I’m quite a saddist, I’ve made someone cry… again… well, technically speaking, not for real tho. sorry to disappoint you folks.

there was this guy, who doesn’t like being called dark or teased that he dark at finally got it from me. There’s this one fine day that I teased about being dark by comparing him with me and he decided to stop talking to me and having lunch with me.

And I can recall him saying this to me: “It is not my choice for me to be born dark!”

Well, there’s nothing much I can do can I? besides apologizing, that is.

My point of this post is to tell you people about what I’ve learn long time ago that, knowing you can’t change something that is already done, learn to live with it!

I’ve quite fair, and many people actually teased me about it. Like way many people have teased me about being fair. I used to hate it, trust me, but look at me now? I’m still fair and no one can talk about it in front of me will hurt me.

I’m born white, that I couldn’t change. What I can change is my reaction towards what people have to say about it, and that I have to be proud of who I am, for who I will be and for what I’ve done. That’s it!

Why get so upset about the things you know you couldn’t change anymore?

Pointless.

 

BTW, Ya, I teased him, but with only 5% of what I usually do to a girl friend of mine who’s dark as well. Until today, we can still tease each other like there’s no tomorrow. You’re a guy for goodness sake. suck it up!

a secret kept too long

I’m sure everyone have their own secret. A secret that we are so afraid to tell, that somehow, we have managed to live with it like there’s no such secret. Everyday, we lived our lives completely unaware that the secret we kept inside doesn't show the slightest hint of revealing itself. In short, IT has consumed us.

Life would definitely be nice if there weren’t any secrets. There’s no need to worry about anyone finding out anything about you that you don’t want the world to know. These are however, impossible to achieve. The reason is simple. People Judge!

 

Say, what do you worry most when you’re trying to tell someone something?

“what they might think?” would be the first question you’d ask yourself.

Then, you will start going “What if…”,

Lastly, you’d ask yourself, “So, Should I tell or not?'”

Then it’s all back to the beginning.

Isn’t that what we all go through? I know I do. All the time!

 

But lately, things changed (maybe it’s just me). I’ve actually started asking myself

“how long do I intend to keep this secret?”

“is it possible?”

“how long more can I do this?”

 

I just wanted to live a life that I enjoy, one that I like, and the one that I don’t have to hide. But apparently, the judges don’t like it.

 

So, to continue to act I shall, as the stage is set up, and the lights are shining. Attentions are on me and there’s nowhere to hide. Because I’ve been an actor, and shall be the best I can be.

Rants

Well, everyone told me a month ago that they started feeling that I’m under alot of stress staying at where I am now and I declined that statement, until today.

I’m not stressed of what I cannot do, but rather stressed because of expectations, from myself, and especially from others.

I’m not sure of it, but I think I’m really a blur case sometimes, I take some time to process what people have to tell me sometimes and due to that, I’ll usually end up screwing myself. Bad, I know.

Things are worse when you have to march all the way to a person’s place to restart her computer for her because she doesn’t know how to do it. I mean, common! how can a person not know how to restart a computer when you are using your computer everyday to do your work?! Seriously?!

Another issue would be the lights. Don’t even get me started on that one. isn’t it a natural reflex to turn it of when you’re not gonna use it?! I did! and I’m also the one who got blamed when I did switch it off and when YOU switch it on again and leave without switching it off! (confusing I know, pls ignore)

Suddenly I feel like I have to look after so many things, be it work or non-work related. what can I say? everyone have their own asses (that includes me). I just want a care-free life, and yes, I think that’s one of my many asses. which is why sometimes I act blur even when I’m not.

Pardon me, but it’s just not a good Sunday for me. Didn’t manage to get my usual R&R, and instead I got a HBP. I’m really looking forward to my holiday week and hopefully get to have some fun and time along to think and relax without the burden and any unpleasant thoughts in my head.

I really really really miss my Uni days. The days when I can really live!