giving is loving?

sometimes, I let things be,

because it's not in my control.

sometimes, I let things be,

because I want it that way.

sometimes, I let things be,

because I don't want to get into an argument.

but most of the times, I let things be,

because I want people who is around me to live happily...

 

somehow, people thinks that giving is happy,

but sometimes, there are things that you cannot really afford to give it to another person...

imagine if someone come knocking on your door and ask if "hey, you have a very good friend over there... can you give him to me?"

or "hey I like your girlfriend, can you give her to me?"

I don't really find that really happy giving it away...

and sad to say, the object somehow went and give away itself...

 

is it stupid to give away things that you treasure most, just to satisfy others around you? but be in grieving sorrow yourself?

or should you fight for what you treasured and make people around you sad?

then, is giving a kind of love?

5B gathering!

well... it's a once in a while gathering for us...

the 5Bs...

and too bad Ronald couldn't make it since he is ill...

got another surprise birthday party from my friends~

i was really happy~

here's some pics.

 

group pic. at Oscar's house~

my birthday!!!

yeah!! it's my birthday on the 28th of march~

and I am glad to say that it is one of the best birthdays ever!!

I hereby thank all of those who wished me!!

thanks alot alot alot...

it means alot to me...

thanks again...

more pic.s will be posted soon..

moment.

things went totally wrong for me this few weeks,

it's like I am no longer in control of my life...

 

some people told me to just follow the flow,

but I think I should get a grip...

holding everything back,

pretend to be in control like I've always did...

 

but things got out of hand today after my statistics test,

when I could not solve 3 out of 6 questions,

when I could not solve almost all the questions in my Properties of Matter's test,

and also when I found out that I have problems communicating with my comrades.

 

this typically symbolize the moment of my life crumbling,

also one moment of my life that I felt so helpless,

this is the moment where I'd hold tight to everything I once am in control with.

 

this moment soon faded when the clock strikes 12,

to 28th march,

when all the messages came flooding into my phone,

while I am chatting with a group of friends in my room,

and when I am hit with a surprise from a gigantic group of friends singing birthday songs for me with a cake.

those life crumbling, helpless, and not in control moments just faded away.

 

and I am glad to say that this happy moment is meant to last!

back to square one...

we remember things,

that is one amazing ability for us, humans

the ability to remember...

 

but we constantly question ourselves,

is it the memory that shapes us?

or we are the one who shape the memory?

 

sometimes we felt like we have been back to square one after everything we've gone through,

and dose that mean that all the things we have done during the period of time are meaning less?

what will happen to those memories in that duration?

dose it just go away?

or we can use the memory as an experience, also a guide to get us through these times?

 

sometimes we let our memory conquer us,

and some conquer their memory.

or it is the memories we had, that shapes us?

so, do we shape our memory?

 

what will we do?

if we are back to square one.